Week 1

This is my first time blogging so it may not be the best blog in the world. First off, I was raised in a Christian family, I was born in Africa, Kenya of a missionary family. I spent my early childhood there, later, we came home to the USA so my family could spend time with relatives and such and my parents were ex-missionaries (not totally). After many years my family gets involved with a program called HCJB where they spread the Gospel through west Africa via radio. We were sent to Ghana. After 18 months we came home on furlough to raise more money. We plan on leaving for Ghana next Jan.. I'm 15 and I consider myself a Christian though not a "perfect" Christian because I'm struggling a bit. Being 15 and all that I find my self sometimes wandering if there's a God and what it would be like if there wasn't one. I do believe that Jesus died for my sins and that He rose from the dead on the third day. It's just really hard in the times we're living in and all I can do is pray and read my Bible (which I find hard to do). I pray almost everyday for God to help me grow strong in God. Though almost everyday I find that I've failed God, like looking at inappropiate video's and such a 15 year old boy would find himself looking at. I'm ashamed everytime I catch myself doing these things (I've done worse but I'm too ashamed to say), but it's hard not to. I pray and listen to Christian rock bands to help but deep down I know that reading the Bible will help. I'm homeschooled so my mother/teacher/principle makes me read my Bible every morning which I'm gratefull for because I know that my problem is motivation. I know and believe that God loves me no matter what but it's hard.

Pray for me
TheEirikr